Not just "getting by" anymore.

So... I wish my blog was interesting...

(I wish my life was interesting.)

All along, I thought I had $130 dollars in my poor little checking account... when SUDDENLY I realized I made a subraction error in my register, and I really only have $30. Funny shit. Hilarious. Somehow that $30 has to last me until my next paycheck, which is October 15th... which is 5 days away... and I have NO GAS in my car at the moment. Literally none. How am I going to buy food? Perhaps I'll live off the soup I have sitting in my cabinet. YES! I L-O-V-E you, Life!

(Hence the quote: "We laugh because it is forbidden to cry.")


Even though I spend my days in doors, writing my novel, other homework, working, and getting no sleep at all... I really do enjoy the fact that I DO have a good life, especially compared to some. I've overcome a lot.

I think I have a problem though, at times, at always looking on the 'dark side' [rather than the 'bright side' that is] because I'm lonely. I feel lonely more often than not. In spite of my loneliness, I also feel content, because I've changed. It's nice to feel internally happy with yourself... it's nice to know that I'm not so dependent on others or alcohol or cigarettes anymore. It's a tough time, but at least I've got it together.